Still no

Okay, it still hurts.
I have no idea when it will stop.
But I will finish my first 5K. It's less then 5 weeks away. I'm pretty sure I will run-walk that. I don't really care about the time, as I was not able (and still not) to train properly. I just want to finish, and stick to my plan. I do less stressful things now to keep me fit (walk, cycle, swim, some workouts), but I will run again. It's a good lesson to me again.
I need some changes. Change of gears. You need some reason to wake up every day. I just turn to the other side, and keep sleeping.
And from my current favourite song:
"Be aware it's just your mind, you can stop it anytime".
Jem - Save me

Argh

Well, well, well.
I've not just went for a 25km walk 2 weeks ago, but I biked 58km yesterday, which are pretty dumb things, when you need to rest. Anyway, I give 2 rest weeks for my body. It got better, but I'm still not 100%. Maybe I have to miss the city run. :(

Inner

Soul : -Come on body I need you.
Body : -We need to suffer, because you ran again.
S : - But Body, you know running is good for us. Good for heart as well.
B : - I told you I need a holiday.
S : - It's been 3 weeks, this is ridicoulus, what do you want?
B : - I want to brake you, and feel my power, you are nothing. You and Mind can't do anything when I don't want to. I am your Pain. I am your God.
S : - What do you want me to do? Sing a nazi songs for you?
B : - I'm greater than nazis. I will destroy your life totally. MUHAHAHAHAHA.
S : - I know it's not you. It's just the evil Virus in you. I'm still strong, and you will never come over me. In fact I will beat you in running if I need to. But it would be better if we could work together. I know the Virus will leave you soon Body, and you'll be back to normal. You are a Survivor!!! I'm with ya! Love S.

I had to...

RUN. I really felt like, I just have to go out. I grabbed my very cool Nike socks, put on the favourite Saucony shoes, and go. I went for 2min run, 2min walk. I did it 3 times. Than after the walk, some U2 came on the mp3, and I thought, okay, I will just run, and don't look at the clock. The result? AMAZING.
I ran 1km in 6.00!!! And it was not fast or hard running. A pace where you can talk to someone... At the end I was a little bit out of air, but just a little bit. It was so GREAT. You can see from the previous post, that I was really afraid of the bus - coming with 7.30 min/km... Now I feel really good about it, and I think it's not impossible. It will be really hard, I need a lot of training, but I will have fun through the process, and the race as well. The 3,6km is coming in 1,5 month, I'm really looking forward to it.
Okay well, I won't do dumb things like today, I will stick to the training plan, but I just had to try what can I do. And I am pleased. And really happy. And that's just great!

The truth is...

... I can't run, I can't really do anything at the moment, I have some serious neuralgic pain in my back, oh ok, we don't have a word for it, but in english it's a pain in the intercostals. Pretty dumb. I mean I was here at home, and it didn't get better. Today I went shopping and I have to tell you I do feel better!! :)
I bought a sports bra, special socks, t-shirt, jeans.
So I guess I walked enough today. Not a training, but at least something. Serious traing begins next week, no matter how it hurts. I had enough.
I will try to put here what I did each week.
Half marathon in less than 180 days. AAAAAAAA.
I CAN.

Let's begin!

Well of course not exactly the ironman training. :)
But I really like the key thoughts about ironman, and when an ironman says "There's no can't in ironman", you can just totally believe that, and see the determination in his eyes.
I'm not an ironman. I am a lazy chick. BUT. I have clear goals, and I really believe that I will be able to do that half marathon in September. The goal is to finish, but there's a bus, and you must run fast, so it won't catch you... So I must finish in 2 hours and 30mins.
There are some part times, which you have to beat as well. I'll write them down here, so I can always keep this in mind.
6km - 43mins
12km - 1 hour 26 mins
18km - 2 hours 9 mins
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So you wonder why I am making it this clear, and why it's like I'm going for the minimum? Well, I can not run. I just started, and now I am happy that I can run for 2mins and walk for 1min. So, I am an absolute beginner, and this is a very big challange for me.
This is my story.